Relying on Him

The lyrics of a new Sanctus Real song really spoke to me as I end one journey and begin another. Just my utter dependence and need for Jesus Christ. I am nothing. I am a broken, sinful man whom has no hope but Christ.

If weakness is a wound
That no one wants to speak of
Then cool is just how far we have to fall
And I am not immune; I only wanna be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall
Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth- I need to confess

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside, broken inside;
And all I go through, it leads me to You
It leads me to You

No matter how self-sufficient I think I am or how many successes I have. I must never forget that it is only by the grace and mercy of God. I am not alright on my own.

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Till everything I hide behind is gone
When I'm open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only You are there to lead me on
Cause honestly, I'm not that strong

As I begin a new ministry I must not try to do it on my own or forget where I have been. Rather, remember the words of Moses to the Isralites.

"...Be very careful never to forget what you have seen the Lord do for you. Do not let these things escape from your mind as long as you live!" --Deuteronomy 4:9

I feel like a man with a second lease on life. The Psalms in particular seem to jump off the pages as they resonant in my heart.

I will praise the Lord at all times.
I will constantly speak His praises.
I will boast only in the Lord;
let all who are discouraged take heart.

I prayed to the Lord, and He answered me,
freeing me from all my fears.
Those who look to Him for help will radiant with joy;
no shadow of shame will darken their faces.

I cried out to the Lord in my suffering, and He heard me.
He set me free from all my fears.
Taste and see that the Lord is good.
Oh, the joys of those who trust in Him!

The Lord hears His people when they call to Him for help.
He rescues them from all troubles.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted;
He rescues those who are crushed in spirit.

--Excerpts from Psalm 34